Well, since I just linked this to my FB page I should probably put something current on here.

I just finished my last treatment at the UofM Cancer Center!!

Now for my next round of chaos, 2 weddings in the next couple of weeks, a bridal shower and a bachelorette party to plan.  Oh, if it’s not one thing it’s another but it’s time for the fun to begin and get past the past year!!!!!


I Missed Me

great title huh?

Lately my mind has been filled with what was going on at this time in my life last year.  I hadn’t yet been diagnosed with cancer but the testing had begun and the anxiety was building.  I just read the first post in my cancer blog to see what I was doing on this day, May 25th a year ago and I didn’t see where I put this date in but I could easily figure it out.  Trust me, I have the sequence of events burned in my brain.  To be honest, I couldn’t read that first post because it stirred up too many emotions of what this last year has been and of how terrified I am that it will come back.  Been there, done that, don’t want to do it again.

What’s not helping is the amount of cancer that seems to be in my life these days.  I’m sure I’m just more sensitive to it but it seems like so many people are getting diagnosed or it’s spreading or something.  It hits me harder when I hear this now but it also makes me pray a little more and thank God that I am still here today.

Ok, this seriously isn’t supposed to be cancer post so I’ll quit now.

What I mean by “I missed me” is this.  This weekend Steve took both kids to his parent’s and I got to stay home! Nothing against my in-laws, I love them dearly, but I don’t think I’ve been home alone since bringing Zach home almost 2 years ago.  I was torn what to do, but I know me, I can’t sit when stuff needs done so stuff got done!  Sad, I know, I’m all excited because I sorted clothes and put stuff away on my day  “off” but it really felt great.  Not only did it feel great to see some progress but that I was ABLE to do it.  My energy seems to be back almost completely and I love it!  I don’t have to sit after 10 minutes, my stamina that I have always had, that I need is BACK and I couldn’t be more thrilled.  Now I just need to find the TIME to do the things I love but that’s a whole ‘nother story.  Man, if only I this much energy when I was on my “vacation”, wow, the stuff I could have accomplished . . .

Ahhh yes, it’s been awhile since my last visit.  I’ll be honest, I do my updating at work since we only have dial-up at my house.  And well, honestly, I’ve been swamped here at the office.  However, I do believe that the top of my desk has been found!!!!  But, it may be a while before I have any pictures to post because my camera is broken.  My NEW camera, argh!  I do still have my old one so I guess I’ll have to break that one back out.

Since my last post I have made a life decision and I am going to try to start letting some things go.  I need to realize that I can’t possible do everything so I need to stop trying to.  Work will always be there so I need to start having more fun!  That’s probably why I allowed myself to buy myself an ipod touch this weekend.  Seriously, it was out of my budget but I wanted it and bought it anyway.  Yes! I need to do that more!

For Mother’s Day I received the best gift of all.  For the first time EVER I said “I love you” to Zach and he said it back.  It was clear, perfectly clear and I loved every second of it.

My life is really ho-hum but I’m enjoying ho-hum.  Well, I’m constantly on the run but it’s nothing overly exciting.  I get up, I go to work, I go home, have dinner, get the kids ready for bed and then go to bed myself.  However, I’m ready for a little ho-hum, the last 2 years of my life have had plenty of excitement.

I’ve had a project that has driving me insane (literally) ever since I moved back home.  People have been more than generous and given me tons of hand-me-downs for the kids to wear.  I love hand-me-downs, don’t get me wrong, but they take a lot of work to get organized.  I had plastic bags of clothes all over my house!  To top it off: a) I just moved back and b) we are changing seasons and sizes.  Sarah is moving to size 18 months and Zach size 24 months.  Finally, this weekend I decided that something had to be done.  So, Saturday I took both kids to the grocery store (oh, that was fun!) and came home started in.  It took me until midnight because of the many interruptions and a couple of hours the next morning but finally everything is organized, in totes and stored in the basement.   There are 3 huge bags that I need to take to goodwill and one big box that I plan to take to Once Upon A Child.  While I was sorting I found about 6 pair of Zach’s shorts from last year that are in perfect condition that will fit him again this year! I was thrilled to find them.  Sarah has so many clothes she can’t wear them all but Zach is about naked for the summer.

Anyway, that is one huge project I can check off my list of things to do.  I managed to get all of that done and have a clean house before my parent’s came for a visit about noon on Sunday.   They brought back my double stroller, a big thing to go in the yard and a bag off ball that I still had at their house.

My next 2 projects:  The cupboard that has so many plastic bowls/lids in it that I can’t find anything and finding the top of the refrigerator.  Maybe this weekend???

The Easter Bunny brought more than baskets and eggs this year, he also brought us a new dog, Yukon.

I’ve been waiting to mention him until I had a picture and this is about as good as I could get.  This 8 month old, Alaskan Malamute is harder to get a shot of than trying to get a good picture of both the kids together!

So far I am very happy with this dog, he’s a little hyper but he’s still a puppy.  He is great with the kids and that was my #1 priority.  He doesn’t even offer to get grouchy with them and trust me, they torment this poor dog.  We’re still working on potty training him and I just thank God that we have all hard wood floors in my house.  He is getting better and is pretty much making it all night now.  I love the fact that he’s kennel trained so if we go away for the night he can go in the kennel and we don’t have to take him every where.  He is such a lover and will smother you in kisses.  He hates to be scolded and wants to do nothing but please you.   So far, I would totally recommend an Alaskan Malamute as a family pet.

Anytime we get a sunny day that reaches at least 55 degrees in April we head outside!  We especially do it when we have a certain little 2 year old boy that begs to go “outside” at least 55 times per minute.  Seriously!  I’m incredibly impressed with his ability to say “outside” so many times in a row and not get tongue tied.  Well, this past weekend we actually made it into the 60s and I loved being “outside” just as much as he they did.

Zach runs everywhere!  Thank God it still takes about 4 of his steps to equal one of mine because I don’t have to run to catch him – all the time.

Sarah is loving being outside also.  She’s not running but she likes to drive the Cozy Coupe

That is, until Zach tries to steal it from her

That picture cracks me up.  Especially when you think about the fact that I was taking pictures of my kids fighting and not breaking them up.  Bad Mommy!!!

However, Zach can be a great big brother and likes to pull his sister around in the wagon almost as much as he likes to be pulled around himself.

Sunday I kept feeling so guilty because I wasn’t doing anything while they were playing outside.  Ok, I was sitting out there with them and watching them but that doesn’t really count does it.  I had so much stuff I could be doing.  However, I allowed myself just to stretch out in the lawn and let the sun shine on my face.  It was wonderful.  Also, I only got to do that in about 2 minute spurts because the kids are 2 and 1 and rest is not something in my vocabulary.

Easter 2010

We had a very nice Easter this year that even included some very nice weather, which is rare here in Michigan.   We ended up spending Wednesday thru Sunday at my parent’s house because I had to be at the cancer center on Thursday so it just made sense for us to stay.  We kept going back and forth on if we were going to stay or come home and just spend Easter at our house but it just didn’t seem right to me not to spend Easter with the family.  So, we stayed but I didn’t have any of the kids’ cute clothes with me – oh well.  I hadn’t bought any Easter stuff yet because I didn’t trust Steve and I not to eat it if it was bought in advance.  So, I bought everything at mom’s and we had a great time.

They found the plastic eggs the day before and had a great time playing with them.

Then Zach colored the eggs.  Sarah wasn’t at all interest but he was all into it!

I only had a dozen eggs for him but he didn’t care and would move the eggs around from container to container . . . with his hands!

Somehow or other they really didn’t turn out too bad.  A few cracks from literally being dropped in the color, but besides that they turned out alright.

and it’s impossible to get a good picture of both of them together, but here they are playing with a new toy Easter morning.

I hope you had a wonderful Easter!