Archive for February, 2010


For months I had a trip planned to join some of my very good friends in Jacksonville, FL and watch two of them run in the Breast Cancer Marathon.  Then, about 2 months ago my radiation oncologist told me not to plan it because of the timing and we didn’t know how I would feel at the end.  I took her advise and called everything off but my 3 friends were still going.  Well, a week ago I decided that I was feeling well enough and I was going.  Friday was my last radiation treatment then I hopped on a plane and landed in JAX around 2:30 that afternoon.

What an amazing weekend!  The entire weekend was centered around the marathon so we didn’t do anything huge like go to a show or a concert (although Jimmy Buffet was in town) or anything like that.  We were 4 friends that hadn’t seen each other in 8 years hanging out and supporting a wonderful cause.  It was exactly what I needed.

The weekend was entirely perfect.  There was so much positive energy that I can’t even describe it.  Well, I’ll tell you a brief story.  My friends that ran the marathon had these signs on their backs

We had to take a shuttle from the finish line to our hotel. As we were getting off the bus the passengers could read their backs and some one said “Is that Vicky Taylor With You?” Obviously, I’m still bald so I kind of stand out as a cancer patient. So they or I or someone said yes and the entire bus started applauding for me. Wow, I just teared up typing that.  That’s how the entire weekend was.  Simply amazing!

I can not thank my friends enough for . . . everything.  I also can’t thank my family enough for watching the kids so I could get away and soak up some Vitamin D.

Krista, Susan and Cindy :yourock:


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Where Have I Been?

That’s a very good question.  Quite honestly, I don’t know, but in a big way I feel like over the past few months that I quit living.  Don’t even start to think that I’ve been curled up on a couch feeling sorry for myself, quite opposite actually, I’ve been running my ass off.  However, every day it’s just just been the motions, survival, not living.  I think I realized it about a month ago when I went to order pictures from Snapfish.  They had a deal going where I could get 50 prints for a penny each and I hadn’t printed any pictures of the kids in forever.  So, I went to upload a bunch of pictures when I realized that I hadn’t really taken any pictures in the last few month and those I had taken were on a SD card somewhere that I could not find.  Five months, five months of the kids growing up that I had lost.  Then it really hit me, it was five months of my own life that I had lost.

Don’t get me wrong, I have loved every minute, well maybe not every minute, of getting to stay at home with the kids, but I think I was so numb from my diagnosis that everything else in my life stopped.  Oh, when I first realized that cancer was going to let me have this “vacation” I was looking up movie times and I was going to get all my computer stuff organized and my house was going to be perfect and think of all the reading I could do, oh, and knitting . . . not quite.  I took Zach to one “Monday Movies for Moms” and my mom and I were able to get away just once to see a movie together.  My computer stuff is in worse shape now than it was then.  I still haven’t finished even one book and I’m still knitting Sarah’s Christmas stocking that I started around Halloween.  As for my house, I’ve been there once since October, nothing has been done.

It’s time for me to start living again and starting getting on with my life.  Over the past several months something would happen and I’d think “oh, I should blog that” and it’s time for me to start doing that.  Don’t expect daily posts and there will be some major lulls like when I go back home and get it ready for us to move back in but as of now, I’m going to get this blog going again.  I can’t lose another 5 months of these kids’ lives.

To start off I have some very exciting news to announce!  Zach’s adoption is final.  It only took 1.5 years but Zach is officially ours, his name is changed and he is stuck with us, like it or not!

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